Five WODs in five days.
All scores have been submitted. We wait patiently for the judges to review the video footage and announce the athlete leaderboard.
Before they do, I will take the time to reflect on the week and pick out prominent events that particularly tested me and situations where I felt most confident/enjoyed.
Firstly, I'll talk about the pre-comp nerves and how they sat with me throughout the week. I won't lie, I felt nervous being kept in the dark; waiting until the morning of each day. I like to prepare myself by strategising how I might approach something. I do this with most things but it eases as I become more confident in my delivery or performance. With no competition experience, I was clueless to how to tackle. I would look at the workout and not be able to visualise or preempt what would be most taxing. This was tough and had it have been an in-person comp, just given one moment to contend, I think I'd crumble.
Even though I had the nerves and was shocked to place in the middle category, I was chilled in my ability, as I had gone into the competition with no comparison or expectation. This 'relaxed' feeling obviously pushed my strengths; I HATE rowing, however in the seeding I placed 70th out of 230 competitors and 2nd in the Kennedy category (of 75) as the fastest to complete the distance and skips. I rode high on this, feeling like I might not be the complete novice I thought I was.
Fatigue from day 1 and 2 set in and the pressure of trying to get that perfect execution of a workout appeared. Day 3 was where my competitiveness and my frustrations on lack of ability and experience shone through. The mindset that I was attempting to channel became distant and I put pressure on something that was supposed to be fun. This happened again on day 4. The expectations I put on myself to get a good result was becoming unattainable and I was snappy and short with both myself and Matt (my partner in crime). Matt came to support me everyday to judge, film and cheer me on and I can say that I may not have seemed very appreciative but I 100% loved him being part of it all.
Short vs long
Can't say I had a game-plan for any workout but I knew I would have more chance at endurance that being technical or powerful. Everything I have worked strength and conditioning have all improved dramatically since I began training in April. I forget the fact that it's only been a short duration of training, especially when it comes to Olympic lifting and grasping the movement patterns and skill in just a few months.
Confidence in my ability was lightly scattered on the surface of someone who works very much by staying within the lines. I like being instructed. I like having targets and that is when I will perform at my best. I must say that my friend and coach (now in a mandatory position to write up my programmes, offer guidance and reassure me when I lose ma shit) definitely passed on brilliant insight and experience to help me through each workout. He even used Facetime to shout at me!
What I have learnt:
Accept that the first attempt is the only one. Let it go instead of dwelling on how you could have scored a few more reps or the environment or equipment wasn't quite right.